Posted

Oct 29th 2009

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ODYNOPHOBIA

(Fear of pain. Of mine or yours, though?)

paired with the pain of others it is the worst the worst the worst of fears because and just because pain always and everyone is always in pain and there is no way absolutely positively no way whatsoever in any lifetime that you could ever escape it because that it what it is pain it's all around us bite the hand that feeds you and I see it and I feel it and there is just no way for me to ever escape tis hell that is in my mind like a drug that just can't be washed out of well it doesn't want to be washed out of my head and I don't know why it just is and it's never been and how how how can I get rid of my mind so that I can finally breathe because I can't think straight and focus I can't think I have a ... and get away and although death would be a vey easy way but I can't KILL KILL KILL the cat in the bag and now the blood drips down my arm I don't know where it's from or why it esists I'm not too sure that any of this is just all a dream maybe I'm still hypnotised and I'm just trying to figure out what is real and what isn't fake and I lied nd this is real but

I CANNOT STAND YOUR PAIN
SCREAM IN THE EARS OF THE ONES YOU LOVE
CLOWNS WILL NEVER HURT YOU
AND DON'T WORRY HONEY, YOU'LL NEVER BE ALONE.








This is what happens when I'm under hypnosis.
This is what happens when people around me "live their greatest fears, and only screaming can make them feel any better at all".

Nervous breakdown and frayed nerves.
I have them.

I suggest staying away from me for a little while. I would hate to snap at you and hurt your feels. (Have I not done it enough?) And I would hate to cause more pain and more pain would make me worse though I can't possibly imagine how my mental condition could get much worse because this is quite as bad as it will ever get I think but I really can't be the judge of that because I'm the last one to evaluate my own limits.


The end.