Posted

Aug 24th 2009

Mood

Music

Jay Sean -- Down

Life has been one helluva roller coaster at the moment. One minute you're sitting back, knowing that you'll be to disorientated by the launch of something you're totally prepared for, then moments later you spin off into a new experience completely different than when you rode before.

I really wish I could explain my little situation without rambling and going on a nonsensical tangent, but all in all I've been trying hard to keep focused on reality. It's hard to describe how I've been feeling, so I've been kind of shutting myself off from the world without realizing it myself until recently. And whenever I have poked around with things I'm not prepared for, I find myself regretting that I even tried. Hopefully classes will help me confide in real people again. It's just hard hearing from the people you once cared for the most tell you that you're.. Just not there anymore, you know?

All in all, I'm kinda settling in to this college; It's much easier since I took some courses over the summer, but it's so much busier of course now and despite how many peeps I know attend it here, it's still unnerving since I kinda don't know what to expect anymore. I don't want it to be high school all over again, despite how much I kinda want to reconnect with my old friends at the same time. Classes are more essential at the moment tho'.