- Posted
- Jul 26th 2009
- Mood
Tom and I aren't together anymore, and we haven't been together for a year or so, give or take. I really should have told people on sheezy much, MUCH sooner, but at the time I was really hurt and confused by how things ended. If I had told you during that time, I would've made Tom out to be this horrible asshole fucker who tore my heart out and splatted it into a meat grinder and then served severed heart back to me. He doesn't deserve it, it would be really unfair to him, and we'd have ended on much worse terms. Now I don't talk to him, much like a lot of very good friends here on sheezy.
Unfortunately it's the same in real life too, I'm too detached from people, and when I spend too much time away I feel like I shouldn't be allowed to grace myself with good people. I disappoint people time and time again and it takes a bigger toll on them than me.
I'm too anti-social, too comfortable with my unhappy lifestyle. Tom tried to show me that there's so much better over and over, year after year, and I never listened, and that's why he left. It was boring, no excitement, no movement. It's not his fault, he's the kind of person who loves to move and meet and greet. I guess polar opposite relationships can't last for that very reason. xD
So anyway, there's that news. I recently got promoted to Assistant manager at my job, a couple months back. ouO
I would very much like to be demoted. Customer service sucks balls TTuTT
I have to wait until the end of September to be demoted, when it'll be less busy.
I've been thinking more and more about school lately, and a good friend of mine, Ashley, has been helping me figure out what to do as far as what kind of art classes there are and all that jazz so I can start school again.
Duh.. I hate my sister, if I could possibly kill her without any consequences, I'd do it in a second TTuTT
uhhm.. drawing has been bit of an issue. I have too many ideas, and not enough knowledge and experience to do it, and with my job I have very little time to do it anyway.
OH I have a creepy 54 year old stalker on my hands as well TTuTT
HE'S GOT A FOOT FETISH ;D
HE'D LIKE TO MEASURE MY FEET SOMETIMES AND I TELL HIM NO AND HE INSISTS AND I HAVE TO ASK HIM TO LEAVE ;D
Hopefully there won't be a 3rd visit from him.
There's a lot of stuff, it's just been too long for me to really recount it all..
I ALMOST GOT LAID D:
..almost.. v____v
the end ;D
Poll: We're you almost laid once?
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..almost.. v___v | 8 votes
The Calm Minded Tai Says:
hmm...well your not dead
Angryman101 Says:
Almost! So close :[. Keep on truckin', girl!
You have many problems, but keep in mind you have an artistic gift! Don't get too down on yourself!
HI GAWK =D
Bleh creepy old guys. You should roll him up in a carpet and throw him off a bridge.
Strawz Says:
Aw Gawk. :C I love you.
SO MUCH.
SO
MUCH.
Leondra Says:
tom and gawk were my otp ):
I'm a bit the same actually when it comes to being anti-social and being comfortable with an unhappy lifestyle.
But I've managed to change for the better in the last year. It's definitely not easy and it takes time, but I can only advise you to work on it as well. Try and say yes more, and meet more people. Don't hide yourself at home. Importantly though, do things you enjoy doing, else there's no point in it.
Just bit by bit and over time you'll start taking initiative automatically and live a more social and active life =)
Vidda Says:
I am actually mad that you haven't been talking to me for so long but I miss you and I would greet you cheerfully if you came to chat with me again.
There is a lot that we have to share. I really miss having a friend like you. You're the kind of friend everybody should have and these days I could really use one. Please don't seclude yourself anymore.
Vidda Says:
Also don't feel you shouldn't "grace yourself" with friends. If that concerns me somehow I am 100% sure we can talk that out... even if I did say I was mad, there is nothing to be scared of with me. You know that.
BabyfaceBenny Says:
Oh, sorry about bugging you a little.
I can totally relate to the anti-social depressed thing, that's how I am sadly. Personaly, I'd encourage you to try to hang out more, for what it's worth. It's because you feel inadequate? From what I can see that's not the case. I think you're very unique and talented.
Anyway, Im not really one to give advice, I cant even get my own shit together, but I hope that somewhat helped.
namzinato Says:
I think if you work at a Jewish bakery or a retail store for too long you are bound to get your honorary creepy old guy who is either a pedophile, wants to cut you a deal on his drugs and hang out because he thinks you guys have an extra special connection, or wants you to fulfill his fetish. It's part of the territory methinks.
You should pump out more arts!