Posted

Feb 28th 2009

Mood

Lonely

Music

MC Chris

So let's see, what's going on now.
I don't even know if anybody even reads these anymore. Guess I'm more assumed dead on here as well.
For a short while, me and Jon got back together - mistake on my part I guess. He pulled the same shit on me again.

Why is life so hard? I'm barely able to make it on my own, I just had to apply for a student loan that I'm going to be getting soon, and it wasn't even for as much as I wanted. I originally wanted to get more, but didn't qualify, rawr. And until I get that money, I can't pay for anything. Not bills, not rent, not food. I also can't seem to be able to get a job. My resume sucks is why I think. Most of all my jobs I haven't been able to keep for a long time. I'm lonely and depressed as fuck right now, which is why I'm writing this journal, ha.
It just seems like I don't have any real friends I can go to. Everyone moves away from, abandons me, uses me or stabs me in the back. It's almost not worth having friends, but the loneliness would eat me up. But I don't have anyone I can go to here.

I need to be put into a comma....