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Feb 24th 2009

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The Red Jumpsuit Appartus

I'M HATING SCHOOL RIGHT NOW...
Don't read if you really don't care for my whining c:

ANYWAY. I know people have it worse with Ms.Austin...but I just plain out hate her right. I'm not even transferred in her class yet. And shes making me do ALL the work. Thats to much for me. I'm not use to so much work all at once. I'm not as smart as :iconkyokotori: or a lot of people for that matter.

My GPA is a 2.33...THAT'S NOT GOOD FOR ME. I usually have a 3.2 or higher. And if I can't keep a C average I can't do the play. Which I really want to do because I got a pretty good part this year. I love singing and I'm good at it. I don't want to lose this part because of bad grades. I want to prove to this world that I'm better at something then just drawing. Cause those are the only things I have right now. Drawing and singing. Nothing else.

And I have an F in Social Studies right. An F...
I don't get F's and I'm surprised my mother hasn't killed me yet. She most likely doesn't know still. Thank. God. And I have a C in PE.
I remember the days were I could run the mile in under 9 minutes. Now I can't even get passed 11 minutes...WTF?!
I got 0's on both pacers cause I ran out of breath and leg muscle to fast. Ugh.
And now I have a nervous habit. I like to chew on things more often then usually. I have bit marks all over my phone and now my teeth hurt. And I'm getting braces next week. At 7 in the morning. Then sometimes after that I have to get my bottom wisdom teeth pulled. LOVELY.
And having to see Ian everyday is bugging me. I'm still pissed at for what he did to me. He broke my heart and I'm super pissed about it. There's more to the story....
He cheated on me. End. Of. Story.
The day he broke up with me. He back with one of his old girlfriends named Katrina. Shes a whore and most people know this that go to school with her. This is why I'm better friends with her sister. I'm mad at her and Ian. I'm just not showing it cause I don't like showing to much emotion in front of people as much as I use to. And I still want to be friends with Ian. Not Katrina. Just Ian. I'm just pissed at him. I liked him before when he was kinda quiet. It was cute.
But now he's a total pervert and he's to open about it. Even Alexsia noticed...goddd...well, only GOOD friends hate your ex : DD

I told Ryan today he broke up with me and he gave me hug. I almost cried. God I feel like crying. But I'm not going to.
Oh yeah I like Ryan AGAIN. Wonderful news isn't it. I've like hm for the longest time I think he forgot that I liked him. Pfft.
And I know this is gonna sound REALLY cheesey. But anytime I see him smile at me. I know everything will be ok. Like I said CHEESEY.

Oh jesus. I think I'm finally done rambling....