Posted

Nov 26th 2008

Mood

Confused

Music

Amber by 311

ok so here's the thing. my former step father(mom and him were sperated) has been in the hospital for almost two and a half weeks, he had diabetes and didn't take care of himself. Basically the doctors told my mom and grandpa that he would be in excruciating pain for the remainder of is life if they kept him on life support, his kidneys shut down as did his stomach, while he was in the hospital he had a heart attack...things were not good. after a lot of thinking and talking my mom and grandpa took him off life support this morning...he passed about an hour ago. The reason that i am having mixed feeling right now is that he was an abusive asshole while e was with us, i saw him hit my mom, my sister, me.....and he used to be a massive drug addict, sooo i kinda feel relieved that he is gone, at the same time however i am sad that he had to die.....but not really, before my Nana passed away she told me that death should not be a time of mourning but rather celebration because when you die you go to a place that is free of pain and all that. So at this time i am just like EHHHH what am i supposed to be feeling.... idk i think i just needed to vent a little bit....