Posted

Jun 23rd 2008

Mood

Joyless

Music

Saosin - it's so simple

In two points:

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Since I'm reaching my 35th driving lesson [in Israel you have to take at least 28] I want to get a test but my oh-so-nice teacher doesn't let me. Asked why? Because I have a phobia of vehicles. Any kind of. From planes to threecycles. He mentioned that unless I overcome my fear he wouldn't let me have a test, and for the record I drive well as for the public opinion. Seriously- how can one overcome such a fear? It's not like it's only started yesterday from vehicles but from when I was a little girl I still can remember nightmares of cars hunting me, bike that push me off cliffs, and the 'harsh' memory that I went through a flight at forth grade when I flew in a plane and one of the engines' exploded. It was a blast, really. Especially when the fire started from the window. And mister knows-it-all thinks he can "cure" me from my fears and even more, that he can do this by giving me an ultimatum: if there's fear - there's no test. So forgive me when I shout and yell but this doesn't seem fair [and a waste of money by the way].

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I'm never gonna drink again..., you know, like that George Michael song? I'm not very famous of my drinking habits nor drinking much but Friday I got to a whole new level that wouldn't shame Lindsy Lohan. I was so drunk I couldn't possibly sit straight, talk or see anything. But all in all this didn't stop me from choking the taxi driver on the way home to let me vomit [and then laugh at myself]. I'm ashamed that I went through such a scene because I do not believe in alcohol\drugs and as a punishment for myself which isn't such a punishment, I decided to stop drinking completely. I made a fool out of myself like never before in my life.

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