Posted

May 4th 2008

broke up...
AGAIN.

surprisingly i'm not overly broken up about it.
sure,
i really do love him.
i wanted to be with him forever.

i guess maybe i am just like
"oh hey,
he broke up with me once before,
but got back together with me.
maybe that'll happen again."
but at the same token,
i know that we wont.
at least not for a while...
maybe not even ever.
if he doesnt have feelings for me
or i dont have feelings for him
after highschool.
i know we wont get back together.

the distance was just getting hard.
i felt it too.
my parents are over controlling.
i can understand.
if i could get away from them,
i would too.

it still doenst change the fact that i love him.
thinking about him with other women
still makes me sick.
but...
i really dont know why i'm taking this so well.
i hope we do get back together.
maybe he's not perfect or whatever.
but that makes me love him even more.
i donno...

i guess we'll just have to wait and see.
i guess this was just a highschool relationship.
but my parents had one.
they broke up a lot too.

greg and i had something special.
and i wouldnt trade it for anything.