Posted

Jan 5th 2005

Mood

Frustrated

Music

Zombie ~ Cranberries

She does have a crush on him >_<! Suckage... apperently she actually told my like.. a month ago, but I don't remember >.> gah...
See, now I feel bad... I really hope that she's not feeling has bad as I think she is. I really don't want to stop going out with Rob, but I don't want to lose my friend.
This is gratig on my nerves...
Do I do the selffish thing and say "To bad, he's mine. Besides, he doesn't like you anyways!" (which I would never actually do or say because that's cruel)or do I give up Rob,, trying to save a friendship with one of the first people which whom i've made friends with when I first moved to the states? Or maybe I can tone own the flirting and hugging and what not while she's around? gaaaah... I feel really bad, but ... but nothing, actually. I just feel bad.
But the bad feeling is being squashed under this happy joyful feeling of finally finding someone after going a year and five month alone.
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It's imposible to make everyone happy...