Posted

Feb 19th 2008

Mood

Discouraged

Music

hemorhage- fuel

okay... my life has been wonderfull..

not flawless
not all happy and fairy-ish like
just real
the joy is real
the sadness is real I live for real
its simple I'm just never home..

last week (mainly cuz it was v-day week)
I was home monday... else than that I was everywhere else

I went dancing last saturday and I figured I stretch a muscle from too much headbanging,,

I have 3 new bumps on the neck..
not bruises.. bumps..

anyway skipped work
and went ot the clinic.. cuz it'S been painfull since after the party..

and the doctor dind't like the look of it

h gave me his tought on it.. with a big smile. : mono ganglions cancer, or hunchkin illness... wonderfull

so he took lots of paper filled in many squares... so tomrorow I'm off to the hospital to do a battery of blood test and radiography.. how marvelous..

I'm not panicky I'm just very annoyed :)

I don't want any of thoses he said

I'm missing 2 days of work in a row! I need to pay rant!

of well.. I'm strong I'l make it..

but I totally REFUSE to have cancer.. doens'T exist for me >___>... lies!
pray for me ^^ even tho I'm not in any religion :)