Posted

Nov 24th 2007

Mood

Annoyed

Music

Crossfade- Already gone

I'm having the usual problems where I'm really hurt from the fact that everyone either doesn't make case or just hates how I concern about everything and then always say do not need help; And see how later on they always come to me saying THEY need help now, one day I'll throw them off just like how they told me they do not need help why the hell should I bother myself with you and blame them for not wanting to make case to me first when it was not late at all, goddamnit.

I don't even get what's wrong, everyone needs a hand once in a while, and all I do is to tell you the truth and try to make you realize the more you complain the worse it gets, but no, things have gone from "Shut up, I've had enough of your bullshit." to "You never really helped.", I wish this world wasn't so stupid, I don't get why doesn't the idiocy just get the hell away from my door.

Oh and since I also have a problem with it, maturity is not something you can just say you have more than everyone else because what you SO far have seen acts more like what you want it to. I can be polite, I can be normal, I can be a nice and honest person, but understand there's things I HATE, things I have to DIFFER FROM, and things that EXCITE ME; I'm a fucking independent human stop judging me.

I know I'm just throwing these words into forgetfulness but at least now you know that even if I have been optimistic, I tenderly ask why the hell do I sometimes try to get into trying to solve everything, and I can't live without doing that either so I can't change it.