Posted

Oct 24th 2007

Mood

Anxious

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i'm just dealing with the smoke and ash, but it's getting bad. everyone's eyes and lungs are being bombarded by the airborne charcoal. the sky is a sickly orange-grey color, there's the ever-lasting scent of smoke (and the fear and anxiety it brings me), and it's just getting hotter and drier.

i totally blanked out on a paper i have due tomorrow, so i'm not sleeping tonight. not like i could sleep well anyway, thanks to my horrible worrying and sleeping habits.

i wish i could do something about all this. all i can really do is comfort my friends and classmate from those areas and... wait. this waiting is driving us all insane.

the fires are far away enough so that my campus is safe, but close enough that there's always this imminent threat. i remember looking out the window and seeing an odd orange halo around the sun. the sky was that hazy orange-grey and it was 3pm.
when the sun was setting, it glowed an eerie red color. people draw horror pictures with red suns. i understand why now. i had such intense chills when i saw the sun that i had to stop walking.
then the sun set and there was this eerie orange-grey light upon everything. the image and the smell will haunt me.

i'm not a religious person. not at all. but i'm praying for the safety of those in the areas of the fires. i'm praying my friends from San Diego and Santa Clarita, as well as those who go to Pepperdine, will be safe. i'm praying that everyone from those areas will be safe.

i'm a total nervous wreck and i can't even do anything about it.