Posted

Oct 17th 2007

Mood

Confused

Okay so, good news bad news! =D

Good news: I'm in a reallllllyy good mood today *dances*
Bad news: I have know idea why.

'Why is not that a bad thing?' You ask. Well, becuase my life went to Hell yesterday.

He, Bastard, Idiot, Baka, Devil Man, whatever you want to call him, was sitting on the couch when I got home, yesterday, eating dinner like nothing was wrong. I walked in a freakin' 8 at night. Glance at him, stare at mom, stare at sister, ignore little brother.

He said 'Hi', I ignored him. He asked 'Why aren't you talking to me?', I said nothing. He got up, threw a fit and left.

Mom glared at me, I did nothing. She said that whatever I think and say about him doesn't matter anymore, I agreed. In my mind I added 'becuase it never has' and walked into my room to do homework and read a book.

'Why were you out till 8?' You ask. Becuase I had school till 5, I had a feeling that I didn't want to go home (mom was acting like a bitch monday), so I went to my aunt's house. Did most of my homework, joked with my cousin's and smiled for real for the first time in a while. Then decided to go home becuase I was hungry. Got home, lost appetite. The End =D

Whatever, this just encourages me more to move out. I wanted to move out by the end of my freshman year, but with this happening, my heart's screaming "Deadline is fuk'n December!!!!" but I'm trying to be realistic and I know that's not going to happen.

My sister was already helping me find apartments near my school, and she even talked about moving out with me. I agreed and we talked about it but I'm not sure.

But anyway, I'm going to be busier from now own and I'm tightening my schedule. I'm limiting my time at home and I'll finish my HW before I go home becuase I know I won't be able to focus there. Whatever.

Awwwww man. Now my mood's mellow. *cries in corner* Oh, wait, I'm happy again. All is kewl! *dances* I refuse to let my good mood die! *strikes a pose*

Ok, g2g, I gots an ad to work on.