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Sep 21st 2007

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So today I went again to the cornea/contact lenses specialist.

I dreaded going in there thinking of the pain that maybe would come, but oh well. It has been worse already, so meh.

I had to wake up today and not use my old contact lenses, and it feels like hell. I know they are not working that much but still they help me to see things when I use the computer.

As the doctor said before, I just have 2-3% eyesight without lenses. That is equal to about 20/400. And 20/200 and above is already legally blind. So 200 over THAT, woo.

Having to see letters someone sees at 400 feet away clearly at 20 feet is not a good sign, I tell ya'.

I can even see different colors in each eye. In my left eye, the colors are lighter than my right one. He says it is caused by how my cornea is distorted.

Anyways, those damn lenses are literally like a drug, I can't work at all without them. I guess today later I will try to do an image in Photoshop resembling how my eyesight was today.

There were a few people already in there so I had to wait for like 25 minutes, which was fine.

After that, they called me in, and did that annoying test thing in which I look into a machine and it was an image of a road fading, sand on the sides and a clear blue sky. The thing zooms in and out and tests how my eyes focus... I think

Anyways, after that, he called mom in and showed her how I could barely see the biggest letter on the eye chart, and that was because I already have it memorized. He said how from today on after this everything would chance.

He put anesthesia drops in my eyes. He said "They will burn like hell, and they will make you hate me for 20 minutes. That is normal. You may also feel dizzy or want to vomit, if you feel like that, tell us."

Yet they didn't burn, I just smiled and said "Nothing happens"

It made me laugh cause my eyes have probably desensitized with all the hell my other lenses have given me already.

He forced my eyes open and put the RGP lenses. They are called Rigid Gas Permeable because they are a hard plastic that let oxygen get into the eye easier than most lenses. It is half the size of usual lenses, like the size of the pupil(1 centimeter), so it will be hell to put it in by myself. The lense is so damn hard, it feels like the outside of a fish, you know, all scaly and annoying. So it will probably take a month for the pain to go away and my eyes to adapt. I sure as hell hope it is less time, because it would suck. They feel as if you had a big scaly bump on your eye.

Oh well. He made go out to the waiting room for a while, to wait until my eyes *restarted* as he said.

By the time I stood up I got all cross eyed and my sight got worse. I felt funny walking It felt funny because I had a better eyesight with them but at the same time I could not focus at all

I had to stare at something for more than 3 seconds for my eye to lock on it and focus o.O A few minutes later I had to force my eye to focus. But still I could see the difference; even with these 'default' lenses that aren't adjusted at all for my needs, I could see damn clear, like I never had before.

So ten minutes after, the anesthesia wore off and it became hell. Every time I blinked I could feel the scaly bump there. I put lubricating drops in, but it did hardly anything.

The doctor called me back, he made me sit, and put a bunch of machines in front of my face. Bright lights, Topographer, and all that crap.

He put a machine in front of me and turned on the eye chart. As he switched lenses in the machine he asked me with what amplification and lense I saw better.

With that he finished taking measurements of my cornea and the shape of it, so he could customize my lenses to help me as much as they could. Surprisingly my sight almost reached 20/25, which is goddamn freaking awesome. I have never reached that in the past 8 years or more.

He then put this yellow dye thing in my eyes. He poked me with it and my sight became yellow. Ah it sucked. They use the dye because it marks everything on the eye, so he could see where the strain/stress marks were in my cornea.

He said again how bad it was and how sorry he was the other doctors were stupid at not helping me.

He took the RGP lenses out, and ah it hurt. It is like needles were put in my eye. I ignored it as usual

He said yet again, how that corneal disease starts changing the shape of my cornea, making it cone-like, creating more and more pressure on it. He said that if we were to leave it like this, in TEN YEARS, literally my cornea would just break, like a balloon, and there would be a scar that would make me end up blind, and I would need a cornea transplant. Ah it sucks.

But he says that this will stop it, as these lenses are hard and force my cornea back into the shape it should be and stop the degeneration.

So hopefully I will have these lenses in less than two weeks, for half the price of the other ones I had that did not help much. It rocks.



And by the way, I have SO MANY PICTURES to upload still. It has no end but that is good!

Also, I have like 90 updates and right now I am not the fastest writer so it will take a while to answer all the comments or favorites, as my eyes are still crappy because I am using the old lenses so sorry if there are any grammar errors too