Posted

Jul 15th 2007

Mood

Angry

Music

Nothing at the moment.

Please pardon me if I sound too mean or too blunt in the following journal, I'm just kind of pissed off right now.

I work five days a week, but with the hours I work, it seems more like six. That's not the problem at all though. The problem I have is, with all my so called "friends" out there. I mean, most nights, I like to get online after work, and chat with some people, or on my days off, relax and do the same during the day, which is comforting to me, and very relaxing. Sounds good, no?

Not anymore it seems like, not at all. Nowadays, every single person I try to start a conversation with, either just flat out ignores me, or says their busy, when it's pretty fucking obvious they aren't. Now, I'm not going to sound fucking emo, saying "I have no friends" or "someone talk to me, please", or anything like that, it's just kind of disturbing when I'm starting to lose all of my good friends out there. Everyone I've ever talked to before, who I keep in constant contact with, all of my good 'friends' don't see to give a shit about me. It's not just online either, in real life it's pretty much the same thing. Either they're all too busy, or just don't want to answer their damn phones, because they know it's me calling.

So it's obvious now nobody wants to be friends with me, so I've been thinking about something. I was thinking about just giving up the internet, for good. But that won't do any good, because I'll still get online everyday, trying to look for friends to talk to. But what I'm saying is, anyone who wants to be my friend still, let me know, or if I seem to be bothering you, I will stop. I'm not directing this at anyone in particular, I'm just venting out the fact that no one fucking gives a damn about me, that's pretty obvious, and that's both in real life and online.

That's my rant, and now I must be going. I guess I will see you guys around, if anyone cares that is.