Posted

Jun 18th 2007

Travis and I are back together. I'm so happy. If I was a girl I would have his babies for him, but I can't, but that's how much I love him.

My dad, is done better but hes still in the hospital, they still don't know whats wrong other then the fact that his nerves are damaged. So he's going to have surgery. He can talk now at least too.

Beat Girl - Stressfull contest, I'm thinking of dropping out. Prodigy Bombay is entering, so it's like no purpose in trying. She's a nice person, but her art really pwns mine. I am proud to say on paper I almost got close to her style, but I cant seem to do it on the computer. :( However I'm trying to continuesly take in the artist I like and blend their styles into mine, which I've been doing for years.

ART Inspiration and Frequently asked questions answered - Basically, Like I said before, I observe alot and take what i like and mold it into mine. I am a big fan of Skinny boys. WHY? Because, I am skinny, a 5'4'' 103lbs Asian with awesome hair im told. So I normally like to myself in everything i draw, in every character. EXCEPT my eyes because I hat them, so I make their eyes more are more beautiful then mine. My outfits normally come from my own closet with a little extra creativity or the stuff I wish I could have, or wish it looked good on me. I've been asked alot why I normally draw boys 98% of the time. Well I LOVE boys, and if you haven't noticed, I'm gay. So I draw what I love to see. And, finally I do love to RP, and I hate when people say I draw good for them to RP with. You know what, I was where you were too, I didn't magically draw better, it took practice. Rping, for me atleast, helped me more, NOW i dont have to use guidelines at all, it helped me use my head and think of how to draw this so it will look right with using little erasing as possible and the no guidelines. And, Speed. If you have a short attention span like me, go to paint chat or artgrounds and RP, I promise you, you'll get faster if you stick with it. I love RPing with anyone and everyone, Like Ippus from instance, if you know her from DA. I know she draws like 5 million times better then me, bt i get to learn from just RPing with her, and i bet you can too. Ionno I just get sad when people say that to me, and that's happend like 3 times this week. :(

Speaking of paint chat - I LOVE the old paint chat, and if you know of any good ones without spamming, or not TOO much spamming, let me know, I'll even go with you if you want. I like the new ones too with the advance tools though. If you do know of any leave the link and either your AIM/MSN, MSN preferably, if you'd like me to come with you. I'm like staying with my grandparents and its hard to motivate them to get out and do something T3T;.

Gaia online - unfortunately I had to remove my gallery AND me pictures out of my gallery but Im still keeping it private for when i decide to put them back up. I don't know people would steal my stuff in the first place. :/

OH, here is a doodle I couldn't finish because the paint chat I was in...I got booted from. It's ugly because i didn't get to fix it T3T but i don't have any new art to show you guys...[dies]


SPECIAL THANKS TO...
- My sister who was there for me through this bad timing in thing.
- THANK you so much. You don't know how much asking my how i was doing everyday and asking about dad meant to me. You were also there to listen to me and I apreciate it.
- THANK YOU SO MUCH. I swear, I feel like I can come to you about anything now. you listen to me and give me wonderful advice. And you are very compassionate and I know you mean everything you mean.
- you have been a great friend with me also. Even when I've been moody. You have helped alot too during this rough time.
- YOu were so determined to see how I was doing you forced me to give you my MSN. Flagged me down on GAIA and everything. YOu rock and thank you so much, you're super nice and I Love you!

And finally to all the wonderful comments that everyone left me. I really do appreciate it. I did read it all. But I think it would be too many people to put in here . But I DO LOVE YOU ALL. I do appreciate your invitations to come you all with open arms, it means alot, and I'm hoping to get to talk to each and every one of you! without you guys I wouldn't even have my gallery. YOu mean the world to me.

I hope you guys are having a great summer. I'm sorry this is so long, no one wants to read this much when they are OUT of school. If you wanna throw rocks at me, I completely understand. ;