Posted

May 16th 2007

Mood

Stressed

Ever have one of those days where everything went wrong?
Well, that's how my day has been today.
From the time I clocked in for work until I clocked out.
I guess it's a good thing I don't own a gun, because if I did, I'd either be dead, or my 12 co-worker all would be dead.
I've got to find something else to do. I just don't see things getting any better in my current job.
Perhaps a transfer to a different location or something. Yeah...new people...new place...new stresses? Maybe. At least it won't be with the same people I'm with currently.
One co-worker is like my own personal cancer. Just can't get rid of her. Not even using chemo. (I've tried)(put some chemicals in her drink once. did nothing. She didn't even get sick or even notice that her drink was different in taste or color.)
I gotta do something!
I gotta get out!

And it makes the day even worse when these people come up and ask you what's wrong (think's to self: go look in a mirror, then you'll know what the problem is)
I just tell 'em to leave me alone.
But do they?
Hell no!
They keep asking...
Hoping I'll break down and tell them...
They even say, "You can talk to me about whatever's bothering you."
Yeah...Right!
If I tell one, everyone else will know in a matter of minutes.
But, the thing is, there's only about 2 people there I trust, and I don't even trust them enough to tell 'em what's eating me up inside.
Finally...near the end of the day, everyone had pestered me enough that I just broke away, went into the bathroom, shut the door, and cried for a few minutes.

I'm at the brink of a nervous breakdown.
Just don't know what to do any longer.
I can't even talk to my boss, because she's one of the main causes of my stress.

Can't talk to her boss either, for the same reason.

I'm at a loss.


Enough of my ranting...I'm sure none of you want to hear about my day.
You all have problems of your own, I'm sure.

If I brought anyone down, I'm truly sorry.

Hope everyone can have a better day than what I've had.