Posted

Mar 12th 2007

Mood

Lost

Music

heart of gold - the dedringers

im sending this journal from work....
so much has happened that's why i haven't been on lately.
my cat, marvin, 17 year old outdoor cat died on march 1st. he was too sick to walk or drink or eat or go to the litter box. i took him to the vet and had him put down, i was there the whole time in his last minutes of life. that was the hardest thing to let him go.
i have a boyfriend.
today my boss/stepdad(not reallybut he's like one)/friend, just had a slap(metaforically) to the face by my boyfriend whom has been working along side me at work since last month. im worried about bryan(boss) he left work without saying anything. they also almost had a fight(yelling-wise) and i was going to cry....i hate it when people argue and fight.
i've also been breaking down at work because my parents are somewhat keeping a leash on me...and im 20yrs of age. my bf is on the brink of telling my dad off and what not...so it's been a rollercoaster on my side of the world.
also i haven't been able to tell my parents about grant(my bf) for one....(ya'll are going to hit me and think im an idiot on this one) he's 33 years old(OMG! old man lover....shut the fuck up people) and my dad is a snooper on the net(checking my history of where i've been) and he also has a myspace account so he could easily go in there and see how old grant is. so i've been really stressed trying to keep a low on this.
No we're not going to allope, no we're not getting married, no nothing is going on sexually between us, no im not pregnant....so there really isn't anything wrong. my parents do know who grant is and that i work with him and that i do talk to him on the phone and stuff....my little brother or niece probably has already told them and their bieng suttle about it. anyway im shutting up.

i really wish life was simple and everyone got along instead of finding any little thing that they don't like and using that as an excuse for not liking them.

sorry i needed to tell you guys what was up and all this...needed to get things off my back. i'll try to post some more art soon....(really need a scanner...><