Posted

Sep 2nd 2006

Mood

Depressed

Music

Feelin' way to damn good- Nickelback

>_< I don't like the way I feel. I dont feel like an emo exactly, but I'm just depressed. My minds been wandering, and thinking about what a friend said earlier. I have to tell the story for anyone to get it. I have all the time in the world, so it's story time.

~*~*~

Well last year, when I was a softmore, there was this guy, and he was very awsome, outgoing, and all the other things that makes someone truely popular. Everyone followed him, he is a juggalo. And I started to feel something...special for him. It's very confusing. I pushed that back and I wrestled with that emotion in my mind for the year basicly. He was a player also. Not in a bad way.

And so summer vacation comes, dont see him because of his mom, and then is dad and step mom get kicked out of their appartment, and he moves to his old town. I was sad, and I havent talked to him for about a month.

Then today, a friend says something...that catches my interest. She says that he had fealings for me....I'm in shock for a few seconds and I say 'as a friend?' and another friend of mine says that she should just drop it. And I've been depressed since they left. Actually more in deep thought. I'll probly be like this untill I get to the bottom of this. I need to know what to do...I'm so confused and sad. And on top of that, I'm bored. T_T Can someone give me some advice? Is anyone even interested in what I write? I just feel like pounding my head into something.