Posted

Jul 29th 2006

Mood

Dead

Music

The Greatest- S Club

2006 July 28

i hate the way things are going right now. i say that i'm okay when i'm really not. i think about the things that should be happening to me but are not constantly.

i bet you don't understand what i'm saying...

you see, there's this guy who happens to be my best friend and my mom's a total bitch and won't let me come to his house over the summer or any time at all. that just makes me feel that my mom hates me you know? she thinks that she's doing the best for me when she's just making me go into a deeper depression than i was already deep into.

i am constantly crying over the fact that my friends get to have more fun than i do over summer break. Cedar Point, Disneyland.... and my mom decides to be a cheapass and not take me anywhere! i'm a total mess because of her!

i total mess right now. i can't stand not seeing my friends... i love them like they are my brothers.

and i don't actually talk in real life very often during this time because i end up saying some shit that someone might be offended by when i don't really mean it. well, my wording is bad! let me correct myself before i get ANOTHER EMOTIONAL BREAKDOWN!!! damn it!

i want all the crying from me to go away... when will i ever smile and mean it ever again? is there a cure for this? that i do not know.

that i do not know.

~Yami Gekusu

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ummm... WTF?!??!

~Yami Gekusu