- Posted
- Mar 29th 2006
- Mood
- Depressed
- Music
- Be My Escape - Relient K
I have utterly not been drawing, so it makes sense that I pick up a pencil and everything turns up crap, right?
I've been feeling down since last month. I don't fully understand it, but on the way home from class today I stopped dead in the middle of the dormitory courtyard. It had just dawned on me that a lot of my problems are my own fault. Nobody to blame but me. I failed to show enough love, I fail to have a passion, I fail to have the skill and determination, I fail to have the courage, etc. I guess I just didn't know. Anything. About me, about life, about... everything. It's tough coming to the realization.
Seth Desmoen Says:
When you're feeling depressed its easy to only see one side of a story, and to blame yourself for all the crap in your life when there are far too many things involved for you to generalize. Up until recently I was feeling similarly, probably because I'm so far behind in my work and I was frustred with the late arrival of spring. In my case its easy to be depressed because I lack many of the things other happy, "adjusted" college kids rely on- a large social network of friends, a girlfriend, good grades (to name a few). But then I remember that I don't need all that, all I need is me and the sense to recognize what really is cool about my life, which is plenty when I think about it. Im sure you'll come around and see the lighter side of things- in the very least you can download Monty Python's "Always look on the bright side of laugh" from the life of Bryan and have yourself a chuckle
Breathe deep, seek peace
~Des