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Feb 16th 2006

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Well all this crap started Friday... and i have no idea what the hell arose me to think what i thought... well scratch that.. i know what did but i don't want to tell you guys. But yea.. It was really Thursday night that got me into such a crappy mood. The next day i was to take off the school day to go to Pittsburgh to have my 4 month check up on my back, which was sposed to be a good day cus i like going there to see my doctor, he is a nice guy for a human. But then something wiggled into my thoughts on Thursday... I have been having some probs with my stomach latly, and for some odd reason i had myself thinking that i had an alser or something in my stomach cus of the probes i had been having... go figure... me being the paranoid idiot that i am sat there on Thursday making the worst out of it... scaring my self by thinking what could be wroung with me... im a tard.. there is another reason i thought i had stomach probes that almost proves i do... but like i said before its kinda private... Anywho... the next day i was better but had hold off on telling anyone and this is probably why i was in such a bad mood, cus i felt like it was bottled inside... so i did tell my Soul bro Gahtren, ad my cousin everything that was wroung... so i felt better... but i wanted to tell my doctor too. I had concluded that because of all the meds i had taken for pain killers while recovering had chewed up my stomach, so i wanted to ask him about that. I did ask him when we got there, and he told me its possible. He told me to stay away from taking anymore meds for a while to let my stomach heal, and to not take any iron. Also told me to gain some weight and eat healthy, when he dame well knows i eat like a hog and don't gain a pound!! i only weigh like 80 pounds and im 15, like WTF?? After that i did feel better that i had told someone about it, and now that we have a watch on my stomachs progress, so yay.
BUT, there is a probe with that pill thing... yesterday i had gotton the females mouthly visitor and of course i have HELLISH gut pains from it, SOOO last night i couldn't sleep a bit from it had to go out into the kitchen stick a cup of water into the microwave, warm it up till it was dame near hot, pour it into a zip-lock bag and go back to bed and lie it on my gut to make it barrable enough so i could sleep. GAWD i hated that there for.. my plan of waking up early was blown... and i woke up at 10.. dame. this was at like 3 am when i woke up... so yea... it magorly sucked...

Anywho... besides all that... My soul sis Chey and my cus Dylan came over yesterday to hang out so that was fun ^^ and we took my Chihuahua Sissy to be bread, but unfortuantly she was being a bitch to the dog we choose as the father sooo sadly... no puppies T_T he chased her around the whole like 4 hours we where there but still nothing... o well. NEXT TIME

Well i think thats all... im feeling ok right now btw and my paranoya has subsided, so yays
Love you guys for taking the time to read my endless rants *hugs all ya*