Posted

Jul 24th 2005

I was allmost calm after first wave, it happens again.. and I did think Zone was in China like he said he would do last Friday, nobody told me that he was on hospital..

He had like marks all over his face and legs, and he can´t stop hearning ringing in his ears.. it is hard to say.. but he will make it.. But one of my girlfriends best friends is dead.. I mean I will never ignore that a war is going on, it is as if nobody notice it intill it happens in our on backyard..

One of my school friends called me on the day it happen, my phone was ringing like hell..

"Are you ok? Where are you?"

I was ok, I could have been dead, one of the ...
I go by bus every day, the one bus that did explode.. I did step of it earlier.. just to go and buy a new game...

I heard the explosion, it echo trough my heart, I ran against the direction the sound came from, not from.. i ran to it..

Smoke and bus everywhere.. and people.. Nuff said about that..

I have been making wallpapers.. trying to act like I was not effected by it.. but I am..

Worse when I saw Zone.. I cried.. Yes great Ruin...

I lost my memory.. now I have gained some new once.. we do all the time..

Reporters asking me where I was at the explosion... I did not feel like answering..

Man.. how am i ever gonna.. go trough this.. how am I gonna be alive..? All poor people.. that died. many where friends to friends.. or wifes..

I hugged my sweet woman for 4 hours.. did npt want to let go.. never..