Posted

Jun 18th 2005

Well, things seem to be getting a little better as of late. Unfortunately, with good comes a lot of bad (more bad than good in my life)...

+ The pain in my side from the stone seems to be gone. Either it dissolved and I passed it without knowing (I hope this is the case), or it's sitting there and I have to force it out weeks from now *shudders*.

+ Got my drawing groove back, as my latest picture shows. I have a couple of pics in the works, one of which is very adult .

- The only channel I used to watch on TV has become a mostly useless waste of airtime. G4 took its place and, compared to what was there originally, I am disgusted at what they show. Who in their right mind puts a show about DRIFT RACING on a network supposedly dedicated to gaming and technology (wait... that's the same as complaining about The Real World and Cribs on MTV). Do we see a pattern here?

- I feel utterly useless, empty, and alone. A majority of the my friends are only online, and they seem to disappear a lot (didn't get a response for over 3 hours in one case).

- I can't get my art queue whittled down, since I can't get any inspiration for some of them. Mostly, just various character portraits for other artists and a close IRL friend.
* Current artists who I have pics planned for. Names may or may not be relevant here, since I'm to lazy to put the code for links here: AngeliqueMascar, Ashkihyena, BoxyMoron, Furball, Sandragon, ShinghamGirl, SnowTigerCub, StriderOrion (debating), Yumeko

- The copy of OC 1.1 I have seems to have broke. But since it's Japanese, the error message I get is all question marks.

- To quote one of my favorite movies, "Complimenting a craftsman's work is always appreciated." Still feel that I'm wasting time drawing, and not seeing any improvements. Striving to be like some other artists, and not getting better, is taking its toll on my self-esteem.

- Still no job or commission offers. No job/commissions = dick for income = very little spending money = no funds to commission other artists (the ones I plan on commissioning go for $30 I belive (Ashryn and Le Eh)).

Wow... the bad to good ratio is 3 to 1....

~NN