The only thing I ask..

The only thing I ask..

The only thing I ask..

I wonder sometimes if I asked for too much
Wanting a perfect life was my poison.
I wanted to be like her or him.
I wanted something more than I deserved.

Why didn't you scream when I held you?
Why did you just smile as you lay dying?
Why didn't I stand up?

Sometimes I could call myself selfish,
Sometimes I wish that you were home.
And I wish now that you'd never met me.

Why did you kiss me?
Why didn't you allow me to say good night?
Why did you leave me alone?

Now I cry in the middle of the night,
When the earth is sleeping and there is no activity..
My wings feel tender and my heart heavy.
I wish....of all things...you've given me...that last goodnight.