Random Frustration release

Random Frustration release

Youve untied my heart, unbuttoned my soul, and rejected my love%u2026
How am I to be happy with myself when in your eyes, I no longer exist?
You kept me alive with your warmth and kindness, but something interfered%u2026
Something has happened, and you no longer trust me%u2026 But more than that, you hate me.
You say you dont, but you dont accept my gifts. Theres nothing wrong with that%u2026
But the next day, you snap and say Ive tried to bribe you back to me%u2026
Youve spoken lies, as have I apparently. Theres only one difference in them%u2026
You said these from your heart whereas I had no meaning behind them.
As I speak, I only know Im sorry. I know not what I said, nor will I ever.
You forgot what I said, and never knew truthfully, but you hate me all the same.
Ive tried to apologize, but you refuse to respond. I tried to talk, but you refuse to listen.
As I look at the whole picture, I hurt myself in finding the Truth. That I am nothing%u2026
You were someone I admired and looked up to, and you seemed like a nice person%u2026
But now, Ive realized that I am the weight slowing you down%u2026
It was fine that we parted, but it hurts me inside. It hurts me%u2026 That I am incapable%u2026
Incapable of helping, or doing anything further%u2026 If I try to help, it goes wrong.
Ill do all I can, but to you, it shall never be good enough%u2026
I have broken you, you say%u2026 But youve moved on. And in doing so, youve broken me.
You say Im the one who hurt you, but look at this now. Youve moved on%u2026
Youre all fine and dandy, and youve got great company. But take a look at me.
Youve torn my heart out with your harsh and bitter words, and your attitude has changed
Youre not the same person I once knew%u2026 You used to be kind to all%u2026
And now, you hate me with a passion. Ive never seen this side of you. Your rage%u2026
It burns within you like a torch. The fuel of it is me, and I guess I should feel threatened.
But heres where its flawed%u2026 You do NOT scare me. You only push me on.
As much as you may deny it, youve become an even bigger part of my life by leaving.
I do not, nor will I ever hate you. Im always there, like it or not.
We exist side by side, but we do not see each other. Youve left me physically%u2026
But you%u2019re always there in spirit. Because I REFUSE to let you leave.
I REFUSE to move on, because youre worth it to me. I may be low and lifeless to you%u2026
But Im still here%u2026
I%u2019m a part of this world now too, and youre the one who has to deal with it.
We met and know each others names. Theres no way now to ignore it.
As I meet you every so often, I stop to say hi. But you turn your back and shun me.
I say hi, you say shut up. It does not affect me, because I will still exist.
You only hurt me more with the words you say behind my back. But whats worse%u2026
When I speak to your face, you respond to mine, but with lies and false smiles.
How can I accept myself as a person if you can no longer trust me?
Its harsh to say that someone is no longer trustworthy%u2026
But its worse to not give them another chance%u2026
They may be just another person to you, but theyre human like you.
So take this moment, and look past them into their heart. The one you broke with hate.
And take a good clear look at it%u2026 It still beats for you, regardless.
So I have only this to say. You may treat me like trash and hurt me%u2026
But Ill always look at you the same way. As the person you are.
Based on how I know you, not what others say. So I ask forgiveness%u2026 Nothing else.

Apostrophes removed to avoid errors