A Beautiful Loneliness

by vampirella666

in Completed Works

A Beautiful Loneliness

Opening my eyes I look upwards
I find myself alone, left lonely
A rush of anger and I'll hate you
You've abandoned me...
I close my eyes and think
If you were here, I'd tell you
I'd tell you all this pain inside me
The pain you refuse to acknowledge
The pain you refuse to soothe
If you were here, I'd love you
I'd love being able to lean on you
I'd love being able to rely on you
But you're not here
You're left me alone

When you are here,
You tell me, tell me all about you
I don't want to hear it.
You tell me about when you cry
You tell me about when you're sad
I find it digusting
I gave up crying
Tears make you weak
Loneliness makes me strong

If you were here, you'd understand
But seeing as you're not, you can't
You're not the one inside of this life
And you can never see what this life holds for me
If you were here, I'd be depressed
But seeing as you're not here
I don't tell anyone about my life
I don't tell anyone about my pain
And because I don't talk about it
It doesn't depress me.

I don't cry for the world I could be in
I smile for the gifts I have been bestowed with
I don't get angry over stupid things
I relax and am happy because of good things
I'm not trying to blame you at all
I'm just trying to explain what's missing

If you were here, I'd have told you long ago
But you were never here, so how could you know?

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May 7th 2006
Tags:
alone angst dark and horror free verse
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Basically it describes my fascination with being alone and why I enjoy it so much... I totally explained this porm on my msn space

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GWhizz Says:

Intstant Fav beautiful poem reaches right to my heart

EmoHeart Says:

But it does depress you. You just don't talk about it. I know because I see you for the greater part of the week. But you still won't talk about it to me or Al. You actually tell TERRIE more than you tell me or Al... ...

Still an AMAZING poem.