WD-40 and Duct Tape

WD-40 and Duct Tape

If you listen, you'll hear it
The sound of muscle tearing
It's only my heart breaking

As you lay there
Unknowing
Uncaring..
Where are you, while you yell?
While you give me a blank face and demand freedom
Do you truly see me?

Calming words, a soothing rhythm
A song that was sung to me long ago
Lulls your heart into false contentment
While your drug induced slumber drifts on
Do you hear it?..
To think such a thing is a comfort
But only to me

I long to know the truth
As I watch you fade before my eyes
I can only pray
That it really will set you free
Free to live, and love
To cherish, and know
Like you did...

So much pain
Blanketing existance with a numb warmth
As fluids that once nourished are rejected
And we both sit on the cold linoleum
Sweat like worry clinging to our bodies and the air
Can you really forgive my leaving?
Or would that be too much to ask?

Fear no longer illudes my contradictive reality
Laughter one moment, tears the next
Each echoing the other in turn
Neither able to hold on for long

Why is this placed upon such firm yet fragile shoulders?
Grounded against the wind
Yet broken by the rain
I wait for the moment of blatant honesty
When I cannot lie
Not even to blind myself

Pain carves its way through my heart
As more volitle things attack my love
Creating a void
Where once there was innocent passion
Now rests an uncertain ache

Cancer, infection
Human names for mortal enemies
That haunt the doors I pass through
For a final embrace
One last moment

A small smile shapes my mouth
A cruel but undeniable reaction
To the short list of items, needed to mend what breaks
What can I add
For me?..