Full Moon Ai-Vee

Full Moon Ai-Vee

What am I to do now,
Now that I’ll never see you again?
I’m missing something,
But I’m not sure just what it is.
Shouting from my heart,
My soul has gone numb.
You held me tight
But I couldn’t seem to tell you to never let me go.
Thank you for taking me with you,
Forcing open my fearful heart that I don’t want anybody to see.
Don’t look for me until I’m dead
I have to hide these feelings
Feelings I won’t tell anyone
Feelings I won’t let anyone touch.
If you’re going to pry,
I don’t need you anymore either.
I won’t say “I’m lonely”
I’m throwing everything away
So don’t you say “I’m lonely”
Everybody, everything
I’ve lost them somewhere.
What’s happening to me?
I held it back all this time,
My tears, why now?
Why am I crying now
Don’t come any closer!
Don’t get any closer to me…
I was going to say “I’m sorry”
I planned to say “I’m sorry” and “I love you too”
I don’t understand
Because I hate myself
What do you love about me?
I can’t believe you really love me!
I said it
I finally had to say it
The wheels start to turn and turn
I don’t want to forget anything!
With a force that I can in no way resist
The wheels turn slowly
And we drift apart
You stay still
But I’m pushed forward
I don’t want that to happen!
Please don’t be nice to me
Don’t touch my heart
Don’t heal my wounds
I don’t want the scars to disappear
This pain is the only bond left between you and me
So I will cherish it.
Tears gush out
And I couldn’t say anything
I don’t know what this feeling is
In my grief, my heart stirred only once.
I was told my fate.
Tell me, my heart
What should I do?
What have I been living for?
But I…
I don’t want to run away anymore
I will not run away…
Just be with me
Smile at me like you always do.
We were so close
But the rain is falling so hard
I can’t see anything
How strange…
There are no scars anymore
But it still hurts.
I don’t want to run away anymore
I can only move forward
No matter how dark the road may be!
It’s over
I don’t want anything anymore
Let everything disappear
I’ve had enough
I don’t want to be here anymore
Not in this place
Take me back with you.