A Philosophy of Existence's Weakness

A Philosophy of Existence's Weakness

Humans aren't weak because of their emotions. They're weak because they wish their emotions gone.

The Example to prove my Theory:

Take a virus for example, such as a simple bacterium like strep throat that now is so pathetically weak that it can only cause suffering. Back when the primate race was just forming, and I’m sure before, evolution had caused this virus and millions of others ; by my theory of extinction, and no one else’s, to become so powerful and short living that the disease spread numerously because it had to populate fast enough to keep it's short life span that probably lasted less than a few minutes that it wiped out most all existing creatures except the ones with immensely strong immunity systems or natural disease breeders like insects. As time went on and the primates arrived, evolution took a different path and found that sacrificing strength for life let the primate population exist and also allowed survival of many diseases that we now face today. My example of this is that they're growing in strength again, and once were subject to weakness because it let them survive; but now are forced to strengthen as we humans start to kill them off like they once did to themselves.

We're so like these creatures. We went through so much trouble to exist and started out so fearsome and strong that we nearly killed ourselves. Humans once were born so far developed that days after birth we were walking; but we sacrificed this to have a higher intellect and understand the world and now are dependant on care for years before we can do it ourselves. As with this came emotions which allowed us to cope with existence even beyond our understanding of things.

Now humans have started to rise in strength and idiocy once more; believing that without emotions, we as a people can exist more strongly and healthily, when really it will just bring about our own apocalypse sooner than we'd wish if we kept emotions.

I have this outlook because throughout my life I’ve been subjected to terrible things that shouldn't be present in a child's life. Fatherless lead to what psychiatrists like to believe is the cause of my homosexuality, but I believe I was born homosexual and honestly don't care what another human thinks. Why do I not care? Simple answer part two: my mom subjected me also to constant moving nearly every year, sometimes within 5 months of each other. A child like me was shredded from relationships and friends as if it was just a bit of food that had no flavor and was in abundance. This caused me to strengthen in terms of existing, and I’ve lost touch with the abilities to fall in love, to have emotional reactions based on my true feelings, and even the ability to care about others and their misfortunes like death. Crying helps, it doesn’t weaken anyone.

Be a friend and spread this word. Print it out; write it out, I don't care. Just make a copy of it and spread it around the Earth like a plague. Start with friends, if you have them. Do it through email, or real life. If you're confident, send it to a counselor at school and tell them a talented young man wrote it and wanted the world to know. Do something at the least. Humans don't deserve to destroy their existence. Envying a wasted bit of water and salt that creases and falls from someone's eye is a sadness that no psychiatrist, president, senator, counselor, or even parent could understand without suffering it themselves. There's almost no recovery from this tragic state of mind I’m in, and you humans aren't helping me out with your shunning of emotions.

Please, just pass this on to who you will and can. I'd be grateful.

Thank you for your time and patience to read all of this.

Jeremy Gallardo - October 4th, 2005