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Safe in my arms, you're only sleeping.
It sits there and stares at me. A paper full of numbers and hidden clinical meanings. It’s mocking me, I’m sure. Mocking the strength of my love and the weakness of my wallet. Screaming with its tiny letters, “DEATH IS HERE!” Oh sure, this one can be removed. But the next? And what else? Liver enzymes that reach for the sky, a limp that ties my darling to the ground. I close my eyes, praying to wake up, praying for the words to change, praying that this won’t signal the end of 11 joy filled years. I open my eyes, and the letters still march across the page in the same patterns, spelling out the inescapable fact of mortality. We all die, but this is too soon. Far too soon. 11 years are not enough.
I told you that you weren’t allowed to do this. I told you “no more strange lumps and bumps!” You’ve always listened to me before, why must you pick now to no longer heed me? You love me as I you, so why do you break my heart? Stay, I tell you. Stay.
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Comments
Fyregryphoness Says:
Goodness. This really touched my heart. I can understand your pain clearly. I lost my beloved chihuahua of almost 14 years not too long ago. He was a very sweet dog. You're right though. 11 years isn't enough time it seems. I'm very sorry to hear that this is happening to your lovely dog. :( I know there isn't much I can do, but I will pray and hope for that you that, in time, your pain will be eased.
*hugs* Just remember, we're all here for you. Take care, okay?
Zenedai Says:
Know the feeling love...know it all too well...
*snuggs* What Fyre said, we're here for ye.
belle0985 Says:
Yes, I haven't had any dogs now for 4 years, but I know I will get another one some day. Keep smiling, no matter what may happen.
Love and dragon hugs
~Belle
Nevernormal Says:
Real emotion here, I know the feeling sadly,I know it well. I hope everything clears out.. :(
As said by others where here for you.
kayngi Says:
Poignant...Truly... I feel for you...
ArabTail Says:
I truly know how that goes. I lost my beloved Pepper of 9 years, to multiple tumors in her intestines, and internal bleeding in her pancreas. The last time I saw her was Oct. 6, 2004. The vet did exploratory surgery on her abdomen, and never woke her up. I know how it feels, and there are some great people here who are here for you. *hugs*
NenaLuna Says:
Pink Wolf Says:
Everyone says they go on to a better place, but love hurts. It's with you for years and years, growing and growing... then in a flash, it's gone. It's the past, just let it go, but it still hurts! I know what you're feeling, it's happened too many times before, and never lasted long enough. You'll see her again, though! Hope is never lost.
taiyaki Says:
What a sad, sad thing. 11 years most certainly is not enough.
In my arms, he was only sleeping. Just a few months ago. God, now I'm crying.