Loneliness

Loneliness

I'm surrounded by the people I love,
Yet I feel alone.
Like something is missing,
A hand I can't feel.

No wamrth in their eyes,
No twinkle of love in their laughter.
Nothing but hits, blows and danger.
Everything's flipped upside down.

I feel so alone,
So frightened,
I'm drawing into myself.
I lock away all the pain..

Just to protect myself.
I'm alone, but I know...
He'll come for me.

He always does.
He beats me, he hurts me, he lies to me.
I just want to stay with an angel,
One with open arms.

Someone who loves me as I should be loved,
Someone who flips my world right-side up again.
I just need somebody now,
To draw me out of my nightmares of terror and loneliness.

I need someone to contect me with my Lord,
Who saved me from the darkness spreading a stain across my bright soul.
I feel so pressured, so exhausted, so strained,
I dont' think I can fight.

I'm lonely and scared,
Frightened and hurt,
Yet I'm still here,
Knowing someone will come.

Oh please, make me look at a real person again,
Don't let me live 'round the sinners and the liars,
Who try and force me to do things I hate,
Don't let me become a monster, or a killer.

I'm that lonely,
I'm that scared.
Something screams to be released inside.
Oh God, please protect me.

My loneliness is killing me,
Forcing me to scrabble for a connection that's never there.
I feel like I'll fall, fall, fall.
As if someone shoved me from a ledge.

What can I do except pray to You?
What can I pray for, except for You to banish my loneliness
By giving me the kind angels I know I have...?
Can you see me, even as I cry, shutting out everything else...

But when I awaken for once form my nightmares,
I find people all around me,
In the air, the earth, the wind and the rain,
As if God understands what happening to me and to so many others.
He knows about us and cares for us...

And I snap out of the darkness,
The demons are gone, the first thing I notice...
I look up to see the one of light.
The one who cared for me..

The one who always listened,
To my fragile heart,
Who gave me the comfort when I cried,
And fought away my tears.

The one who shared me all their fears,
The person who gave me back a life,
The one who saved me from an impossible fight...
With the dark which ensared me in it's grasp.

The person I needed always stood there,
Loving me for who I am.
There's a few people who would understand it,
The loneliness that was banished away...

I need those who felt what I felt when they read my words,
They understand how I've been.
Everything else doesn't matter...
As long as I have them.

They can banish my fears,
Throw away all the scars,
Wipe away my tears,
And love me for who I ultimately am.