Illusions Broken

Drawn August 19th.

A...REALLY lazy sketch thingy.

Shadow's 'impressions' and 'assumptions' about Amy are broken when she proved she too can be depressed about a lonely life. He can't really decide whether to leave her be or stay near by to figure out what the heck he COULD do:

"I didn't want the details of your pathetic life
How you wished for a lover
And wouldn't mind [to be] a wife
I didn't want to picture a [woman] so sad and weak
I cherished my illusions
Until I heard you speak
I didn't want to ponder the reasons you confessed
Your torrid past relations
I never would have guessed
That I would seek my refuge
For that I'm angry still
I didn't want to know you
And now I never will

[Because] if you're so clever
Then why are you on your own?
If you're so very good-looking
Why do you sleep alone?
I know...
'Cause tonight is just like any other night
That's why you're on your own tonight
With your triumphs and your charms
While they're in each other's arms...
It takes strength to be gentle and kind
Love is natural and real
But not for such as you and I...

Is it just me or do you secretly enjoy it?
You play the victim very well
You build yourself indulgent hell
You wanted someone to understand you
Well be careful what you wish for because I do

...I'd like to think I wouldn't die for you,
But you know I would
'Cause that's the fool I am
And that's the rule you bend

What somebody threw away
May just get me through the day

[But] what right have I?
You are not mine,
Nor will you ever be
I need not try to read your sign
You don’t belong to me
I should not care how you behave
What difference does it make?
Perhaps someday you will grow brave
And from this sleep awake
But when you do
It will not then be caused by what I say
But by one who holds you within [his] sway
And as I claim no place within the life you choose to live
I’ll stay the same, as I have been
Perhaps I own the privileged place
For worry I need not
I may condone,
Reprove with grace,
And still remain unfraught
With jealousies and petty cares
And all that love demands
But why all this?
As I have said,
It matters not to me
...[Because] what right have I?
You are not mine
Nor will you ever be...

Do I need you?
Yes and no
Do I want you?
Maybe so

And whatever I am
You are the other half
I cannot comprehend

Spent my whole life telling everyone to leave me alone
Don't touch, don't look too close
But I didn't mean you

You went to an open door
Instead of knocking harder at mine

You didn't see that I cleared the path and left the walkway free
For I told myself that I'll only be tread on by you
But now that I finally look with love upon someone
To you, no one else matters but him
But still, you fool,
...You thought I didn't mean you"

Emilie Autumn