Final Farewell....

Final Farewell....

When the darkness comes to take me away from here I will welcome it with open arms.
I shall weep within my heart an soul for the sins I've committed.
Wish that I'd done something different to lessen the pain of living in this world full of cruelties and shattered hopes.
I will stare up at the nothingness that I've created and try to understand what it was that I did to make it turn out this way.

Crushed so many hopes and dreams in the end and realized that I didn't really care after all.
I think and let the shattered remains that are me drift away on the sea of ruby red.
Slowly I allow the numbness of near death encompass me and allow me to slowly slip away.
I close my eyes and fly away on this ruby red sea and let death grip me in its dark hands.

I say farewell to those who care to listen to my silent goodbyes.
I say sorry to those who will listen to the one who never allowed herself to say such a thing with true meaning.
Flow away, flow away and finally leave this wretched world with one last breath.
Weep and weep I do as I allow myself to be dragged away to a place not much better then the world I'd left behind me in ruins.

Jezykia 2009.5. 8