The Dregs

The Dregs

I'm no longer able to so much as glance at myself
I've arrived here alone with you
And we stand side by side without feet
Frantic fingers that will nevermore intertwine
Fluttering hearts that have ceased to beat
Stomachs gorged with rubber knots
Our affections dissipated
Our emotions emaciated
And though we claw through each other's bodies
We can't so much as weep
And we spend the next thirty-one weeks
Harvesting violet skin
Extinguishing memories
And insulting fidelity
Then it swelled for me
Heaping green lymph nodes
That soaked us in anxiety
So, here, I thought
For only a moment
That there was color in your lips
That your hair had the strength for curls
That light lingered in your eyes
But you, my once sculpted companion,
Have fallen grey and indifferent
And as your nostrils moisten
Your loins dry away
So I starve myself by feasting
On the company of others
Who bore me
Who adore me
And I breed a mutt of contempt and regret
Great billows of sweat that hang over my brows
Splotched like the cows from the country
That hunt me
In front of me, a pillar of stone
That you've somehow contrived to be a home
It fits all your possessions
A list I could eat
That ranges from aggression
To old body heat
Leftover from sheets
Black like the streets
Highlight stains from last nights
Glazed over like sweets
Now we've moved to a morn
Where I woke with a start
My thighs wet, hot
I slammed my hand to your heart
Your chest was taut, strained
Your pigment was flushed
I fingered your teeth
That were no longer crushed
I never thought as much
That I'd touch you again
When I felt a weak tug
On my hip, worn and dim
Your breathing was shallow
My patience was thin
But I sat and observed
Like some loving woman
You shook and you rose
Cheeks pushed by a simper
Then you held me,
Had me melting,
I forgot that you once loved me
I unhinged my jaw to suck in your breath
Willingly flung to a void between life, betwixt death
But to my horrid displeasure, I awoke once more
To find you had left
All your blood on my floor