A truth revealed.

A truth revealed.

What do I hope to reach with it? A single letter containing my darkest secret. How will releasing this help anybody? All I do is make clear that I feel like that, but nothing else.

I will not reach any new level, I will only reach salvation of my depressions, my inner sorrow. I’ll be able to talk about how I feel, but is that what I want? Confirmation of people that can never understand? People that likely have their own big secrets?

No, all I want is to get it out there. Nothing else. Just know people know. They will not help, they will not interfere.

I want to change my life, turn it all around, but am also afraid these changes will happen.

Saying it like that, I might as well not say it at all.