Alone

Alone

Loneliness is one of those emotions
That consumes you
From the inside out
Clawing up from your stomach
Shooting through your bloodstream
And mind
Dragging you down into the depths
Where it seems that nothing can
Reach you
No one will be able to reach down
And pull you out
Loneliness when you're with the
Ones you love
Now that really sucks
Because no matter what they say
A glass wall is still there
Keeping you away like you're not there
They can't hear you
They can't see you
They don't even know you're there
It's nothing personal
It just happens at times
Loneliness easily consumes
Especially when you really think about it
It doesn't really affect me anymore
I swear I don't care
I just want to make sure that it's
An absurd reason that I'm thinking
Of all this loneliness
Pure selfishness is a good idea
I suppose
But the glass wall seems to be a
Permanent thing
I guess I don't mind
As long as I can know
That you'll always stay
That even though I've lost you
You'll still be here
That even though you can't hear me
And even though I'm walking
So far away
That you don't know I'm there
I want your promise
That you'll stay
So when I honestly need you
You'll be there
Even if you can't see me
I just want to know that you'll stay
And that this loneliness
Is merely absurd
That I feel it for no reason
Other than selfishness
Because loneliness consumes a life
Consumes it with lies and fear
But something is better than nothing
So loneliness is better than
Emptiness and the truth
So just promise me you'll stay
Even if it's a lie
I'll take anything right now
To keep the loneliness
I've become dependent on
Because sometimes loneliness is better
Than acceptance
I'd rather be lonely
Than accept the fact that I don't have you
Anymore