Freedom's Price

Freedom's Price

I would rather freeze inside
Than get hurt
So my emotions will die
One by one
Slowly ripped out of heart
Painfully
Until the beautiful day
When tears do not come
As I listen to the screaming
And fears do not appear
When my nightmares won't go away
My mask will remain present
So that you still believe I am here
But listen closely enough
And you'll hear
My hollow laughs and smiles
You'll see my lifeless eyes
Watch so you can
Hear my body's cries
But I'm long gone
In a much better place
You're just staring at a stone shell
That won't shatter
No matter how quick the pace
But don't forget that
I could never get rid
Of the one emotion
You and I both need
Love is still there
In the essence of my soul and heart
And if you listen closely enough
You can hear my heart calling for you
To find me
And bring me back
To my life
Look for my soul
Hanging up signs
Lost emotions and life
If found
Please return to body
The heart and soul are missing them greatly
Tear ducts are dried up
And no fear can be found
When violence and death are around
Just because I'm in a better place
Doesn't mean it's a good place
It's only a place where I can forget
All my hurt and my heart and my soul
But I still remember you
And I think that's why I'm looking for a way back
But I'm lost
Who can help me?
I don't know my way home