My Goodbye. (Laurie)

My Goodbye. (Laurie)

I wanted to pretend it was a horrible nightmare.
The day I came home
and saw the boxes by the door.
I looked for you but, I couldn't find you.
You weren't home.
I watched them take the boxes to the car;
everything I once knew,
all my memories,
all my feelings came down,
crashing as they hit the floor.
I ran into my room to find
my room was no longer mine.
I laid on the floor
and tried to make it all go away.
I couldn't comprehend.

Last night things were different;
we were planning the day.
I tried to convince myself that I'll be fine.
They told me my heart would mend.
Finally it came,
they took me away.
They put me in the car.
I try to say something
but no words come out,
I can't speak.
All I can do is feel the car pull out of the driveway:
with me in it.
I look at the home
and the face I once knew.
I watch it get smaller and smaller
as we drive away.
Taking me away from everything I knew.
I was taken away
and never got to say goodbye.
I wanted to say goodbye,
but they wouldn't let me.
Now I only see it in pictures;

It's been 6 years,
and I still think about that day.
I still wish it would have been different.
That I could have said goodbye.
I won't lie,
I was changed after that.
I won't deny,
Nothing is the same,
but I'm okay.
You stay in my heart,
and your a big part.
Maybe someday,
I'll get my goodbye.