Inner Weakness

Inner Weakness

Can you heal the pain in time?
Can you freeze these tears of blood?
Trying, trying to break this spell
I’ve been falling into year after year
Hope begins to recede as my health fails
I even doubt the will to survive
Strength, these hands pull stone after stone
Pain – you’ve never known such a thing like it
I’m climbing up the mountain I did before
But you pushed me off so long ago
Pushed me off

I’ve been out for so long it’s made me numb
I’ve been down for so long I don’t want to look up
I’ve been sad for so long that everything feels the same
I’ve been out for so long that I’m used to be left alone
I’ve been down for so long that I can’t bear to look up
I’ve been sad for so long that the warmth doesn’t remind me

Can you heal the pain in time?
Can you postpone my decline?
Defying, defying the laws set to my life
That binds and defines the person who I am
Questions arise as those closest doubts me
I even begin to doubt myself
Pride, won’t speak or won’t complain of my inner weakness
Law – you’ve never abided by one
I’m pushing in front of the line
Just so I can be the first to go to hell
Take it or leave it

I’ve been out for so long it’s made me numb
I’ve been down for so long I don’t want to look up
I’ve been sad for so long that everything feels the same
I’ve been out for so long that I’m used to be left alone
I’ve been down for so long that I can’t bear to look up
I’ve been sad for so long that the warmth doesn’t remind me

Can you heal the pain in time?
Can you force me out of rewind?
Prying, prying open the doors once again
To the heart that lies inside my chest
Locked inside this shell of distrust and anger
Doubting when you’ll come and save me
Trust, like rules it is so easily broken
Truth – famous for speaking nothing but the
In my head my memories cascade like pictures
Watching as they all pass by
Forgotten places in time

Like slowly watching a waterfall in its constant cycle
Peaceful and, at the same time, I am wondering:
Where does the cycle ever end?
Back and forth between these haunting memories
I don’t know if I’ll ever lose track of time
The constant ticking of the clock
The constant shuffle of the feet
I don’t know if I’ll ever be able to resurface
But now and again I’ll come up for air
(so i can) Breathe life into these dead lungs
(so i can) Give feeling to this dead heart
(because inside) I have this inner weakness...

I’ve been out for so long it’s made me numb
I’ve been down for so long I don’t want to look up
I’ve been sad for so long that everything feels the same
I’ve been out for so long that I’m used to be left alone
I’ve been down for so long that I can’t bear to look up
I’ve been sad for so long that the warmth doesn’t remind me

I’ve been out for so long it’s made me numb
I’ve been down for so long I don’t want to look up
I’ve been sad for so long that everything feels the same
I’ve been out for so long that I’m used to be left alone
I’ve been down for so long that I can’t bear to look up
I’ve been sad for so long that the warmth doesn’t remind me