Smle

Smle

Everyday I wake up, it's exactly the same
Take my medications - wonder what I'll do for today
My horizon seems very far away
Back home and settling in, the war has not begun yet
Yearn to gain knowledge
But insight is such a weak thing
Pass the time (not caught up with me yet)
Wonder when the day will come
When I gain what's rightfully mine?

My hands grab at something irregular
Am I clutching at empty promises?
Feel the need to live and breathe
To experience the life that I was given,
Is distasteful inside my own mind
Is it wrong to enjoy the little things in life?
To know that I won't have it ever again

I can smile however I want,
It's just the perception that I don't mind
So take that smile whatever way,
You want to

Everyday I wake up, nothings special about this day
Take my medication - look towards the sky and get lost
My horizon seems so close, but yet so far
Back home and wondering why I ever returned
Yearn to be more talented
But success is tainted with evil things
Lose track of time (wonder if I'll ever meet it again)
Wonder when the day will come,
When I'm given the key to my safe?

My hands grab at something peculiar
Am I clutching at empty thoughts?
Feel the need to live and breathe
To experience the life that grew inside me,
Is pathetic in my own mind
Is it wrong, to enjoy the simple things?
To know that I won't ever live again

I can smile however I want,
It's just the perception that I don't mind
So take that smile whatever way,
You want to

Everyday I wake up, there’s nothing new to see
Take my medication – everything is feeling okay
My horizon seems distant, wonder when I’ll arrive
Back here and wonder if I’ll want to go anywhere else
Yearn to be more like others
But failing to understand that I’m just alright
Lose the passage of days (will I ever see next month?)
Wonder when the day will come,
When I’ll finally claim my independence?

My hands grab at something strange
Am I clutching at my own demise?
Feel the need to live and die
To experience the life that’s inside of me,
Is a parody in its own right?
Is it wrong, to enjoy the little things in life?
To know that I won’t be given a second chance at this

I can smile however I want,
It's just the perception that I don't mind
So take that smile whatever way,
You want to

To know that I won’t be given a second chance at this
Mistakes are made, a path is paved
Am I wrong to follow blindly in the dark?
Wandering further out of my boundaries
Uncomfortable in these new surroundings
Saving face, but always gaining leverage
Testing the will of time
But always having the upper hand
Always had the upper hand to begin

My hands grab at something irregular
Am I clutching at empty promises?
Feel the need to live and breathe
To experience the life that I was given,
Is distasteful inside my own mind
Is it wrong to enjoy the little things in life?
To know that I won't have it ever again

I can smile however I want,
It's just the perception that I don't mind
So take that smile whatever way,
You want to