Everyday Torment

Everyday Torment

It’s never enough; no words can dispel the pain that I feel
I’ve shut myself inside this coffin, hoping no one pulls me out
Buried alive under the earth is where I’ll remain forever
Never to see the light of day again
From an early age I’ve built these walls up, never to be torn down
But over the years they’ve tried to break me down
Submissive presence forever haunting
These ghosts chase me the pathways I’d cursed and betrayed
Just wanting a taste of what’s inside my mind

It’s never enough; this IV gives me life by the gallon-full
I’ve shut myself deep inside my heart, the prism of everyday torment
Buried underneath the weight of all this pressure
Slowly choking on the dust of others that have left me behind
From an early age I’ve learnt to hide my emotions
But over the years the cracks have seemed to get wider by the hour
Leaking my integrity all over the floor
Ghosts will never stop chasing, memories you’re forgotten
Just wanting to be myself again inside this claustrophobic shell

Live this life waiting for the moment to always pass me by
Again I feel like a failure, pushing my way through the crowd
Got to see the first glimpse of light breaking the sky
Just to be sure that I’m still alive, I’m still alive
Never been sure why I’ve gone down this lonely road
But it’s the way that life has redefined me, all these years
I keep on living, in this everyday torment unknown to those closest

It’s never enough; my words won’t compensate for the guilt that I feel
I’ve shut myself away, wanting no one to come and find me anymore
Buried under the weight of others’ encouragement and humiliation
Always to remember at the lowest points
From an early age I’ve fashioned myself to be different
But over the years, I seem to be following the flock more and more
An oppressive weight forces me to sleep every night
I try to dream happy thoughts, but this sight sends shivers down my spine
The last thing I remember is the end of my life
(When you took my heart away from me and left me with a prism of feelings)

It’s never enough; everyone walks away and says goodbye, in the end
I’ve shut my heart off from the world, keeping it safe from any more damage
Buried under this stone walls that I’ve been built over the years
(Can you find the key and undo the lock in time before I die?)
Slowly choking on these tears that I produce every night
From an early age I’ve always believed it’s a sign of weakness
But over the years I’ve cried more times than I can count
Trying to wash away the dirt upon my skin
These faces I see and they bring me down everytime, down to ground level
Where I can begin again, right from the beginning

Live for the moment always hoping upon the wish of a star
Again I feel like a fool as I turn around to see nobody waiting for me
(Is this how it’s supposed to be? Always the lonely little boy?)
Got to reach the entrance to Hell first before anyone else
Just to make sure that I’m destined to go all the way down
Never been sure why I’ve not hit rock bottom yet
As it’s the way I’m destined, all along my life
I keep on living never knowing the reason
(Why I’m really alive – WHY AM I ALIVE?)

It’s never enough; memories haunt and chase me through my dreams
The words that I have on my tongue are not even to justify
My confidence dwindles by the hour, with no sign of reprieve
All along I’ve been told that I won’t do anything
But here right now, on the stage that will never be upon
As I’m pushing you out of my life – I choose who I keep and send away
It’s never enough; I want it all, I want all that I can have
The words that I speak...
No one hears them, resembling innocent whispers in the air
If I’m destined for nothing, then please tell me why
What am I destined for, in this world?
Is it nothing? – Is it everything?

Is it nothing? – Is it everything?
Is it nothing? – Is it everything?
Is it nothing?
Is it nothing?
Is it everything?
Is it everything?