Where do I stand?

Where do I stand?

In your eyes, where do I stand?
In a group, or am I alone?
Do I move about?
Or am I still as a stone?

I find myself scared.
Thinking what shouldn't be thought.
Have my words changed your heart at all,
Or was my speech for naught?

I want you to be happy,
so I place your feelings above my own.
People said that love caused pain.
The amount, I should have known.

If you did forgive me,
I haven't yet felt a change.
At times I want to punch my own face,
are all people this strange?

Some nights I feel depressed,
but the dark thoughts are gone by day.
'It’s almost like seeing the light side of things,'
You put my mood this way.

I thank you for your patience,
your kindness and your charm.
If I have hurt you in the past,
I never meant to do you harm.

I love you more than anything else,
I just want you to know.
I ain't forcing you to do anything.
Just... give my love a go.

If you do, you just might find
You're scared just like me.
Scared of losing everything we have,
but that will never be.

I hope I'll forever be one to you,
You will always be a friend in my mind.
I promise no matter what happens,
our futures will be entwined.