Heart.Break

Heart.Break

I had fallen into a dark place
a place without the spear of light
and ray of day
a place without hope
without beauty
love
laughter
sound
A place where nothing echoed
nothing breathed
I lay there, curled away
tucked into myself to wait
for my sentence to expire
The darkness ate my fingers
devoured my nails
and peeled away
my skin
it feasted on my words
and stole my hope
in exchange for worry
and sorrow
and hate
I lay there forever
an eternity of night
waiting for one sharp spear
of light
and warmth and love.

Then I realized no one would
rescue me
and I stood on my own will
I forced myself through the
hell without sun
and searched for light
inside myself
I reached far down
beyond the hate and despair
to try and grasp
what little glow I had left
what little light that still burned
as bright and true
as a summer day
simmering, slowly diming
as myself waned away
Grasp as I might
I could only catch a speck
but the speck was strong enough
to force light into dark
and dark into heaven
and send my world into
the norm

And here I stand
with the darkness lurking inside
of me
with the small spark of hope
grasped tight in my fingers
like a bug squirming to get free
I hold tightly
I know it will wiggle free
but as long as I hold it
I am in light
I am in laughter
hope
and beauty
for the little time I
bask in the sun
I will cheerish each moment
and not wait to be pulled back into the dark