A Work of Art

It's something I can't speak, and yet I can't hide,
It tears me apart, and eats my insides,
The stress overwhelming, it screams and it cries,
Nothing more, nothing less, it's my parasite,
That I wish I could run from, I wish I could hide,
It feeds and then breeds on the fears I provide,
Unwillingly, albeit, but I take it in stride,
Impatiently waiting for these things to subside,
And I watch broken hopes as they split and divide,
A sickly sweet game, and I'd cast aside,
The fact that my passion has been denied,
And I'd do anything, rip the stars from the sky,
I'd be your everything, in who you could confide,
Going through this together, I'd be by your side,
But I have no chance, and it ruins my pride,
It breaks my heart, and I have to decide,
To go on or not, with all that I've tried,
Like it or not, I'll just keep on this ride,
A train going nowhere, and I'll be its guide,
So far not so good, but here I'll reside,
Relentless 'til the day that my dignity dies,
Nothing can stop me, even as these tears dry,
I will not desist, I will not say goodbye,
Even as what I wanted goes horribly awry,
I will defy, I will apply, I will know it draws nigh,
With every second, every minute, every day that goes by,
I will not give up, I will not comply,
For what they want is such a far cry,
So go on, parasite, tear me apart, devour my insides,
I'll cut myself open as I scream and I cry,
This is something that from you that I cannot hide,
And my heart I will give you, that I will provide,
Your rejection of me, I will take it in stride,
I know that these feelings will not soon subside,
My passion is something I cannot divide,
I will not let this devotion be cast aside,
With as many times as I'll be denied,
Just let me do something, steal the sun from the sky,
Give you day and the sunshine in which you confide,
Something I'd swear, I'd be by your side,
Please give me a chance, don't tarnish my pride,
Don't break my heart, don't make me decide,
To go on or not, but I know I'll still try,
I trust I'll get somewhere if I stay on this ride,
A train going somewhere, and I'll be the guide,
Hoping it'll go better, here I'll reside,
Nothing can stop me 'til my courage dies,
I get no grade for effort as I let these tears dry,
I will not cease, I will not say goodbye,
Even as all my plans go terribly awry,
I will defy, I will apply, I will know it draws nigh,
With every hour, every day, every month that goes by,
I will not give up, I will not comply,
But what I want seems such a far cry,
Ineffectual dedication, a martyr at heart,
For her smile which is purely a work of art.