Desire

Desire

Seconds crawl.
Mind lingers on memories fresh as time itself.
Voices mingling,
Awkward silence.
Laughing,
Sighing.
Body heat reaching out,
Clinging,
Electrifying.
Heart stops,
Breath catches.
Angel of light and darkness unified,
Speak!
Disappointment precedes delight.
A hunger,
A craving so deep,
Sheer torture to be inches away.
Close enough to touch...
Impossible to describe a desire so deep.
Fantasy,
Fantasy,
Even in my dreams.
So comforting is the thought of crying in your arms,
Shameful is the thought of you seeing me cry.
Desperate to impress,
But to be fake?
Vile and tasteless.
Never shall a sin such as this be commited,
But the obvious to be.
Not me,
Not you.
One day,
Maybe.
Until then,
Sins of variety shall fly.
I look forward to the lies tomorrow brings.
Or sooner,
Maybe,
Laughter and things.
Somehow I find myself still far away,
When rather,
You and I could be sitting together,
Faster,
Faster!
Riding through the night.
The clock ticks backwards.
Damn.
Gone another day when I could try again.
This day has no end.
My heart in knots,
Never free till the day dreams become reality.
But what does this make me?
Part of the band,
Or just another groupie?
And what am I to you?
Curiosity?
A face in the crowd perhaps.
A joke, humiliation.
Why am I even here.
A reminder, fool.
It's okay in the end.
I'll continue to dream
Until tomorrow when I can lie again.