Life is depressing. I had the sudden urge to make this after watching s piece on the news with a fire on a mountain. It was shaped like an eye.... My brothers and I say it's a sign from God, the Divine, or whoever has enough magic to conjure this up.... And I kept saying stuff about the wind how and how strong it's been--Kamikaze...
That kind of explains some of the things in there....
I don't believe in god though. Hell, I may be buddhist, but I don't even pray to my own god...
It just felt right....
I'm in a state of panic, and probably depression and shock too....
But anyway. I am too sick and worried to do anything else then try to vent this panic....
I sketched up myself first, and must've realized somewhere along the way or before when I was planning to draw this that Jedexa must hate fire too... After all, it's a huge part of her life (I doubt anyone knows Jay's life 'cept me.... not that you need to know). There's really no reason why Jay's scar and my tears are in color either.... Jay's scar isn't even a burn, so I dunno why it's emphasized... I guess it just needed something. and I'm not supposed to be crying, it just fit the mood. Really, I think I started this when I was arguing with Quad on the internet, so... meh. My brain is just too jumbled to remember much even if it's only a few hours ago. I like my eye... I was planning to draw a "zombified/dead" version of my new style of eyes, yet somehow... it turned out to be this. I dunno. I like it though... I need to find out how i did that... and my hair is a sketchy version of my new 'do... yeah. Maybe getting bangs wasn't such a bad idea....
I must've tried doing that fire to the right a hundred of times... so annoying.... that smog thingy between the fire and the faces is actually a very failed attempt at fire.... I just thought it's look like cool smoke. The white magic-y shojo-looking effect was totally unplanned. at first, I just forgot to change the eraser shape. This turned out cooler, so I kept it.
All those numbers and whatever I got mostly cuz I did some digging. I even quoted one of the articles I found in my picture. I'll list my references so no one can flame me and whatever and be snobby about getting the numbers wrong (>_> ....). It was kind of annoying and depressing to go through so many firestorm articles....
http://www.signonsandiego.com/news/metro/20071023-9999-1n23firemain.html http://www.signonsandiego.com/news/fires/weekoffire/20031030-9999_1n30main.html http://www.signonsandiego.com/news/fires/20031104-0936-wildfires.html http://www.nbcsandiego.com/news/14405372/detail.html?dl=mainclick
I used a few pictures I got off the NBC website.... I like the bottom right corner one--it was near a lake or reservoir or something....
I only used the one in the top-right because my mom said that that was the place where Tao (?) lived.... You can't see the fire, but it was there....
The 2003 Firestorms hadn't affected me much except for it being the first year where I never got to go trick-or-treating. Why is it that this 2007 storm has me so worked up? Is it because Life's going downhill? Or that I'm just not seeing the glass half-full anymore, or probably ever again?
...*sigh* I didn't realize how late it was... When the sky's always dark, it'll do that to you. It'll also make you tired... all the time.
Do whatever you want with this picture... It's wall-paper sized for a reason (it looks so small now that I've got a bigger screen though...).... Just... give credit or tell me, and steal it and die...
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Keahi Says:
To slip into my analytical self, the scar and tears are there probably to emphasize the pain and sadness you're feeling from the epidemic. As for the quote, I have something to add. Fire doesn't just destroy life, but it helps to renew what was once there. It's nature's way of fertilizing the soil. Yes, it's quite a disaster when it breaks out through residential homes, but people are determined to rebuild. It's actually quite beautiful really the way fire works.
Finally, fires are breaking out more commonly because the time when the world ceases to exist is coming. I feel it come closer with each day that passes. My personal thought is the world has seven years left before all Hell breaks loose, but please don't take that as an actual prediction. It's just a guess. *hug* It'll be ok. Homes will be rebuilt, people's wounds will heal (both emotional and physical), and life will become what it was before the fires. Trust me. Humans are resilient beings. They've lasted this long and I'm sure they'll continue to do so till the end of time.