LAtely I've felt like shit. Mom's been getting very overbearing and controlling, and my friends tell me to leave AZ. One friend intends to move me to NY to get away from it.
And I'm terrified. I know if I stay, I'll beb forced to adapt, or, become a loon because it's expected I work full time and do school full time (12 credits, as is the law of Full Time, not their definition). My mom and I nearly had a physical fight, she's loud, aggressive, and controlling. Everything must suit her.
Leaving, I have to drop school, and find work. Work I can do, but I'm terrified of leaving because I'm afraid... I'll get in trouble for it and get punished. But I have to leave. It's been causing me anxiety, and I've wanted to cry. I've been listening to the Vanessa Carlton version of "Paint it Black", and it lead me to express myself in this. This... I have no name for. It personifies all of my fears and insecurities right now. They live in hiding and don't like to be around light and people.
My insecurities in what there is left to do.
Comments
Breakman Says:
Leaving is a scary thing but I speak from experience when I say I'm leading a happier life because of it. I know these things don't always workout for other people, but I think it'll workout for you no matter what you decide to do.
Natsuko37 Says:
I can empathise very well with what you're going through. *hug* It'll all turn out right, but you need out of that situation.