Title from Painbastard
Ok this has taken me SO long. The sketch was started before the System reject piece and has taken me a few weeks to colour. But i think i'm pretty happy with the result.
As with most of my art lately i don't know what the meaning behind it is until its almost finished. I collect lots of stock and stuff to help me gather ideas but there is always one that will stand out to me more than others and at the time i dunno why.
This here represents something that i went through not long ago. Its hard to explain but I'll try my best.
I bottle everything up. Everything thats happened to me has found a little storage spot inside me somewhere. Every inch of me has a little secret something stuffed into the cracks. I hate it. It makes me feel all rotten and decayed inside. Like a slow working poison. It chokes me. It smothers all my thoughts and hopes.
Its like a death.
For ages there was no one i could talk to about all these horrid nightmares from my past. I couldn't even say it out loud to myself. My hand shook each time i tried to write these things down and i always started crying. It felt like i would be stuck with my disgusting rotting memories forever. That they would always be there filling my guts like a black bile.
But i finally managed to uncork my bottle a bit. With the wonderful help of my dear darling i was able to finally...breath again. It was like the sickly memory clouds inside me slowly began to clear. It was like breathing in life for the first time.
And while my bottle threatens to close again...and there are still too many things stuck inside...i have made a progress and it feels wonderful.
This is what this image means to me.
It makes me smile to look at this and know how much happier i am becoming. It will be a reminder to me to keep smiling and to try and work out the problems in my life.
I used a DA stock for the pose (i dunno how to add a link to it - sorry)
But Everything else in the image is mine so not taking please.
I'm planning on trying to do some kind of step-by-step of how i make my art next while working on something new.
I hope you guys enjoy this :)
Feedback appreciated.
(c) Mansongothic - Jess McGuire
DONT STEAL!
Size- Another big one (bigger than A3) - My last for this size
Comments
Sgt Nelson Says:
Once a gain I am blown away...WHY HAS NO ONE RATED THIS YET?? I think it should be front paged! D:< I love your style so much...
lovecraft Says:
wooo i love ur style. i like creepy expressive stuffs too >w<!
Jaxxy Says:
mmm, nice. I like that you've got a lot going on in this. It easily catches your attension. Nice. :) Gotta love those red and white mushrooms! I use those in some of my stuff too.