.

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this girl i once knew
she made me happy
and i loved her true
but circumstances and mistakes
they ran me through

i see now she lied
for she never cried
she felt nothing inside
and nothing to hide
but she kept me supplied
on a roller-coaster ride
and then dropped me in stride
falling to oceans tide
my heart should have died
but i survived

i still love those eyes
and the echo of her voice
forever it cries
through my head
with meaningless Why's

and one lost their head
so now shes alive
and i'll be dead
she'll be fine
she'll have no dread

she'll be happy
someone elses heart waits for her
and mine belongs at the bottom
of a endless river
she threw it out
like a piece of bad litter

&

i still love you
i can't get it out
no matter how much
i scream and shout
and i hope someday you'll realize
just what i'm talking about

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you expect me to lose what i feel
to just move on
as if none of it was real
i don't understand how

maybe you can move on
and let it pass
for you it'll be gone
but i'll never forget

all the things i said were true
even if they never seemed it
so while you find someone new
i'll only ever be able to love you

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see that there
that was her favorite
and that color hair
reminds me of her
that looks like something she'd wear
and it was her best pair
no matter where i go
its like a constant glare
like a neon sign reminding me
"No more times will you share"

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i can't believe you
was i so demanding?
so entrapping of your freedom?
your acting was outstanding
have you ever told anyone the truth?
is it time for your ritual branding?
you coulda let me in
i would've done anything
but that was just impossible
so now i have nothing
and its easy to see your happy
you've got everything
and your proud of it
i can see you laughing
its good your free
you'll be forever smiling
and me forever dieing

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hollow
shallow
whats the difference
wallow
gallow
the places i belong

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i'm forced to fight the affliction
the one true addiction
and no escape of eviction
except poetic diction
wishing my life were fiction
only brings me contradiction
my neck is under constriction
and this death becomes a depiction